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Herein you will find a fair demonstration of what Psychiatric professionals refer to as Grandiosity. It is one symptom of a mental condition known as Mania. Normally individuals who exhibit this mental condition are completely unable to produce rational thoughts of any value to our society, subsequently the condition is viewed as a liability rather than an advantage. Yet there are currently medications available which can moderate this condition fairly well, with a minimal number of undesirable side-effects.

To be in control of one's own mood and to be able to avoid the pitfalls of fantasy; this is the nature of the challenge that individuals with this genetic condition must overcome. It's not by choice but circumstances that we are faced with such a dilemma, for there is no-one to blame for genetic abnormalities which prove to be a disadvantage. On a practical level, we must pursue excellence in judgement in order to apply that commonly shared talent to determine what is truth, and what is imagined. It can be a very tedious process to sort out the things which we can know and rely on, from the things that we merely believe. And part of the reason this is so difficult is that we have more or less been taught what to believe from a number of different sources. There is always another person around to inform us of beliefs which they hold to be true, and such truths are dispersed through all forms of modern media.

All I can tell the reader is that I have suffered or enjoyed a very uncommon and extreme experience of life, and the things that I have learned are a reflection of all those personal experiences. Therefor I have managed to learn different things. Of course my own view of reality has become colored by all those truths which I have taken to heart. This place that we inhabit seems quite remarkable to me, it's a wonderful thing, who in their right mind would want to be separated from all this stuff?! Over time I've come to love Planet Earth for what it is and what it contains, and the most interesting thing that our world contains is us. It would be quite a boon to us I think if over a period of time we could manage to discover that this reality we all share is characterized by Unity rather than Separation. As there seems to be an endless number of ways that we can divide and categorize our environments, we often perceive separation between ourselves and any number of other individual persons who are our companions within this Universe.

It's not really easy being patient in waiting for the rest of the community to catch up to where I am now. Hurry up and get the Big Picture, it might still be possible to reform all that bad behavior which human beings have exhibited over the full course of our long history. A little education can go a long way toward improving the sanity of individuals and large communities. For my part, I am doing my best to create explanations that can be easily understood. In service of the common welfare of our species here on Planet Earth, that is about all I can do at the moment.

We Are The Ones Who Choose

Once upon a time I made an important decision, a decision which intends to influence your welfare. I made a simple choice, one that I was able to make at the time, and one for which I could make a durable commitment. I have been well rewarded for making that decision, albeit not financially. I value that reward so greatly that I think I can base my success in life upon it alone. I'm sure I have a few other notable achievements, I've managed to become a biological father and a grandfather. The nature of the reward that I received manifested itself before my eyes, and mine alone, as tiny stars arranged in the form of a human being. If I give this description, most rational people would say that it's very simply an affect of the mind. To them I would say that this is just one experience I have had over the course of my life. And they might say, well that is to be expected of anyone else with your particular genetic condition. In fact this genetic condition manifests itself in human lives in a variety of ways, it's not uncommon for persons to hear voices.

Occasionally such voices have been attributed to a God or some other Higher Power. In some experiences these voices may seem to be threatening or reassuring, and they are considered to be a symptom of something beyond the person's control. With my own experience of lights there was no voice; but on one occasion I did very clearly hear a voice. The voice which I heard spoke only 7 simple worlds, it said, "Ken, do you really want to suffer?" To which I immediately replied, "YES!" But only a short while later I reconsidered and chose for myself the path of least suffering, at least for the immediate future.

Once again I have made a choice for myself, to follow a certain path, one which I call the path of the Great Patriarch. It's my desire to fulfill that role for my Human family, the greater family, the one which is all-inclusive. Perhaps its beyond my ability to progress along this path to the desired destination, perhaps the goal is very simply unobtainable. But I know that I may proceed to follow my own heart, and I do not need recognition from my peers follow this path. The only things that I really need to succeed are my own will and unlimited time. All that I need from my billions of chosen children is a willingness to entertain a conversation. Perhaps they will be unwilling or unable to give that much of their attention to me at the present time, but this does not mean that I fail, it only means that I have to wait. Over the course of this mortal life, I think that I have practiced waiting enough to have become pretty good at it.

I have heard that there is some clinical evidence that the practice of mindfulness affects real physical changes within the body of the practitioner. Maybe I should try to practice some of this mindfulness myself, instead of practicing my arguments all of the time. I have given a great deal of my attention to games, I enjoy the ability to focus on one of them for long hours of the day without interruption. Many of these games I have played included thousands of other real-people, residing in various places around the world. When I am so focused upon the game, my mind is perfectly in the moment, perhaps that is a degree of mindfulness practice. Well I only have a very general idea of what this mindfulness entails. Perhaps I can arrange to be reborn as a Buddhist, this mortal life has made me ready for those conditions I expect. But what would I be without my torment? In this lifetime the torment makes all the difference, and I pray for the strength to endure it forever, in service of a cause.

I've always had my own pacifist ideas about what the greater good for humanity entails. If I thought I had a fair chance of persuading the world to disarm and disband military forces, I would certainly make the effort to do that very thing. I had drawn upon the Christian New Testament Bible and the Vision of John, to say to myself, "Yes! This resurrection to immortal life seems to be the best possible outcome for us." So what in the world is the Blog really about? And why does it seem to revolve around some Greater Power, or the presence and activity of a God? According to that book, a 'Millennium of Peace' on Planet Earth is a necessary condition which leads us to the desired result. To myself this implies that there should be no armed conflict going on around the world for at least one-thousand years. Truly a Humanitarian goal, if it could be achievable. In the more recent past I have drawn to the conclusion that no argument could be persuasive enough to enable the world to disarm itself, short of the threat of mass destruction on a Global scale, along with the possible extinction of my own species. I need remind myself of this principle, "Violence can never be the solution to Violence." If we go about killing all the bad and angry people in the world in order to create a more civil condition in the world, the people who do the work and all those who direct them, make themselves the bad people.

We send an army to assassinate one man, and topple a world government, which was a government that many people wanted to have in our world. Unfortunately it happened to be a form of government which America doesn't like, and if they do what their faith tells them they must and offer sanctuary to a madman, we are more than willing to turn that against them. I for one can not condemn such human behavior; however it may be rationalized, I must embrace those people as they are. I've never received any special power to change another human mind or make a decision for them, I can only decide for myself. I try to pursue my own goals in a way which makes minimal demands upon the time and attention of others. As Jesus implied, the great mystery of faith would empower us to move the very mountains, but I have not found the solution to that mystery for myself. The only mountain that needs to be moved is myself, "I Am The Mountain."

Throughout my life, my friends have always known me as Ken, and that is the English spelling for an ideogram in a dialect of Chinese. That ideogram is represented as a hexagram in the Book of Changes or as it may be pronounced, 'e jing.' This symbol represents the Chinese ideation of what Mountain represents in the Chinese philosophy and culture. I feel a great sense of gratification, that through my two sons, I have a personal and vested interest in the ancestry and history of those people. Their mother is Kueilan, that is the name of a white mountain flower, but most people know her as 'Queeny.' I married their mother in a non-denominational church; and at the direction of a Christian Minister we exchanged our vows, which included the words, "until Death do us part." This is not the way that most Mormons get married, they exchange vows with one another which are supposed to be good for eternity. I did not ask Kueilan to commit to that length of time; I happen to know that many Mormon marriages have failed, some of them found that they could not keep their vows. The vows that I made are still good, but Kueilan chose to forsake her vows because she wanted a good American life and believed she would not have that with me. I choose to let her follow her own heart; I don't think she is very happy with the way her life has gone in America, and I'm sure that she is not happy with me. I guess that's more than enough information about my personal life, which I've endeavored to leave out of this Blog over the past years.

To the Chinese people, 'Mountain' means a bit more than a very high terrain feature of the Earth. I know that in their history this term has been applied to describe Generals of Armies, as to compare individuals to landmarks. In terms of historical events some persons are very easily landmarks; which I think adequately demonstrates the power of the individual to influence our reality to the extent that many other individuals are a feature of this reality. The Blog title, "Gen" is a variation of the English spelling for that Chinese ideogram.

To my own way of thinking, Heaven is the reality which we inhabit in manifest form. I could not bring this Heavenly Kingdom to our world, because our world has always been a part of that Kingdom. All that is really required, is to assist other people to discover this truth for themselves. In modern times, the term Heaven has come to mean something very different from our experience of manifestation, some people see this fictional place as a place of un-manifest existence. When a Human Being dies, we observe their physical form to decay. We assume that this physical form is the only form of manifestation the person possessed, we are left with little evidence upon which to base our assumptions. We say that we experience separation from that person who may have been important to ourselves. At the same time many Christian and Judaic thinkers have imagined a creator of physical substance and form, formed in much the same way which we are formed. We observe that this manifest person is not present here on Planet Earth and then conclude that there is separation between ourselves and God. Here we have a great desire for divine guidance, and we want the highest possible authority to tell us how things are and why we are a part of it. Some do hope that there is some divine providence which guides our world leaders, as the American motto is, "In God We Trust." We recognize some unknown God as the authority above these United States and it's Human leaders. As that God has never appeared physically in order to govern us; we have been left to govern one another, and that is exactly what we do. There's no person of higher authority that can tell us we are doing right or wrong, but most of us trust the rightness of our own opinions. However at the very base of all our opinions is the fact that we are mostly unaware of our Universe as it has been.

Of course the past 5000 years or so of Human History have been documented to the extent that we can feel comfortably informed about historical persons who are no longer alive. All those persons were observed by many others at the time that they lived, and perhaps a few people made notes on their observations, in some cases the individual has produced the documentation of their own life and works. But clearly the story that we can read about in books or watch on television is not the exactly same thing as the truth. Through documentation and film we can only experience things indirectly, facilitated by our imagination. In some cases our best authorities who produced the documentation we rely upon; were not themselves direct observers of the events which they wrote about. Its not really all that unusual for human beings to employ their own imagination to embellish upon factual events their own interpretations. We can never say exactly what the person's had experienced who were actually involved in any these historical events. The main problem I see is that the person's who have given there opinions are now unchangeable by the passage of time. How well would we receive the wisdom of Moses if an actual physical person walked up to us today and informed us about their conversation with God? If we could pry the soul and spirit of Moses away from death and give it once again manifest form, how can we say that his position would be unchanged by his subsequent personal experiences? Indeed if there is something more for us to experience than this mortal life, we can hardly begin to imagine what we would learn from such experiences.

I perceive my own personal historical existence as being made up of so many more beginnings than conception and birth. Our ancestors must now depend on us to give meaning to their deeds and purpose to their existence. We must somehow find the conclusion to this Great Game of Life, declare a winner and end our race to be the better and most favored persons. One of us must overcome this mortality and become the higher authority which the modern world lacks. The only authority that can possibly unify every nation of the world under one government, the true King of all Kings. In my humble opinion its not Democracy that our world needs most but Monarchy. Our Democratic governments have adequately demonstrated their willingness to employ violent means in order to solve problems. The proponents of  Democracy pretend that they favor congress between peers in order to find the compromise in-between our pursuit of diverse goals.
To this end we must have a well-educated and expert representative to secure all of our individual interests and see that none are overlooked. I may not be considered a peer to those individuals; but whatever my interests may be, there is no-one else with the will to serve them. We have other Kings that we do serve; like the King which says that it is wealth which empowers an individual to direct the life and work of many. We have the King which tells us that competition is good for the community, and the very best competitors should be well rewarded. And we have the King which tells us that our best ideas are a property to which we may exercise the right to demand compensation of, or deny an individual to benefit.

Of course we have spent hundreds of thousands of man-hours upon the arts of war, to see all that effort come to no good use. But there is no army that can be armed to overcome the power of a single individual to influence the direction of world events. And perhaps there is still a superior technology to be discovered which would bestow the strength of righteousness and mass destruction upon One. Those two things so clearly go hand-in-hand because here on Planet Earth, "Might Makes Right."

Human Nature & Eternity

As far as God given rights go; it's not possible for any mortal authority to suspend such rights. As individuals and collectively our power is that limited. The only problem is that most people have no clear idea what those rights amount to. It doesn't even matter how many people you can get to vote on human rights, or what the majority opinion happens to be, it can still be wrong. The Constitutional rights of the American people are just dead words on a musty old parchment and nothing more than that, because they can never be guaranteed equally to all people. Under some conditions we are willing to say that an individual has forfeited their rights. Always and with every rule there must be an exception, but God can not make exceptions and neither can the person who presumes to assume the role of Great Patriarch. There must be a common degree of Human Dignity in our personal dealings at all times.

The founding fathers of the United States claimed that even King's do not have superior personal rights than they themselves had, going so far as to imply that every human being has the exact same rights. Sadly most American people have not taken this idea to heart; which just serves to reinforce my view that they amount to dead words on a musty old parchment. I was born in America but I consider myself to be a citizen of the Universe by birth, and a citizen of no lesser divisions thereof. My 51 years of personal experience have brought me the revelation of one human right which is absolutely guaranteed equally to all; "You have the right to have peers and companions." You can never be denied companionship, as we must consider all degrees of physical separation as being meaningless. While a few individuals have enjoyed or suffered a more isolated experience of life, the spirit of the living God is still with us at all times wherever we may go. In fact God's presence pervades every corner of this great big Universe, no thing can ever be hidden from the divine eye. No cubic meter of manifest substance may be considered more or less holy than any other, as it is all touched by God's constant activity.

Many of us may think that some individuals should never be considered as a peer to themselves, but truly we have no power to negate that relationship. We have that relationship with every single individual human being; including many that have had to endure unfavorable living conditions, for a history going back approximately 100,000 years! People like Sadam Hussein and Ossama Bin Laden are exactly equal to Presidents Bush and Obama, as far as rights go. We should never presume to demand a life to end our own suffering; but quite often we are willing to employ those very means to assure our own personal comfort, as if we are more important than the one that must be sacrificed. At the very best we can request your attention to an expression of ideas, in the hope of persuading you to make a simple choice which we have no special power to make for you. Sadly it's so often believed that, "Might Makes Right!" Whether it be physical strength or the strength of superior numbers or even the strength of superior firepower, up to and including the ability to employ weapons of mass destruction. Mankind has pursed this principle for thousands of years and nothing ever changes, planet earth and all it's inhabitants still need to be saved. Perhaps some unmanifest existence awaits us beyond our mortal ends; but what we really want is a physical self without the limitations of time to hinder us. According to some Biblical texts, explicitly or implied there is that possibility in our future, that we may be manifest once again and forevermore. But nothing in this Universe seems to be able to last forever; even the information that it holds may be sucked away into a separate realm, or so goes some theories. Eventually the fabric of our space time will expand and cool to the extent that no chemical reactions will be able to take place, in some very distant future which we need not worry ourselves about. Even if our medical science can prove to us the possibility of immortal life; how can we believe in the possibility of a resurrection for the dead of our great multitude?

Well I don't think that I can say such a fate has been guaranteed to Humanity at this point in time at least. It seems that our great and wonderful Creator is very much pro-choice and not particularly pro-life. At least this seems to be the truth of our reality given my own personal knowledge of our history. In the PC game Diablo 3, Malthael the Angel of Wisdom says, "Whatever their struggles, whatever their triumphs, they die. That is wisdom." And it's not that strange that an important bit of truth can be found in a video game. After all those fantasy worlds were created by some of us, and they often tell a story, a story of a life where enjoying the time playing a game is the only thing that matters. Rank and privilege matter far less than participation in the Great Game of Life, we are equally important participants in this great and epic story. A story to be remembered until the ends of time, or so I believe.

I for one know that I'm a part of something much greater than myself, and greater than Humanity, even greater than Life on Planet Earth. And I also know that I can never be removed from my place in history, therefor I feel a great sense of security in my own existence. I have lived long enough and accomplished enough to secure my place in Heaven and the greater Eternal Kingdom. Instead of faith, I have trust. I trust God to keep me in a good consciousness; but at the same time I realize that he does not guarantee that I will enjoy every experience, but he has the power to make me endure any experience. I believe that our time is truly unlimited, perhaps we are even unlimited in our potential to grow and mature, at least this is the truth of my version of reality. Conditions may be subject to change, therefor the authority that some people exercise in this world is merely a temporary condition. As we judge others, so are we being judged in return, and the judgement of those others may matter more than we believe it does. In due course of time we are equally favored and loved, for some of our time we may even be more or less favored and loved.

Getting Validation From Subjective Truths

The following content is re-posted from an internet conversation:

We can not dismiss the human experience as invalid simply because we do not share a similar experience ourselves. Testimony must always be considered as evidence in any court of law, and should have some influence upon our own judgements. If we believe our fellows to be dishonorable because they have made some choices which we ourselves would not make, it still does not invalidate that person's personal experience. And what they have learned from their different personal experiences may be as true to them, as our own truths are so dear to us. For all that is considered to be subjective is no less genuine for being solitary.

While our own personal knowledge may be subjective, that knowledge or mere belief will somewhat govern what we choose to do in the world. As the actions of others are a part of the reality that we have to deal with on a daily basis, those beliefs and choices may be relevant to us in-as-much they can influence our lives. Do you believe that human behavior, or the will is quantifiable and measurable and predictable? If it was, governing our world would not be such a difficult job. Of course it is still possible for us to learn better behavior, and we choose our own authorities on the topic of how we should behave. It is good that there are some things about our world that we can trust; but we must continually ask ourselves, do we really know the things that we think we know? Some of us may have made poor decisions in life and elected to trust the wrong principles and authorities, but can they be blamed given our limited capacity to be aware of the world around us? It's hard to verify and validate some ideas with absolute certainty but we still need those ideas in order to make life manageable.

Foresight

I've only made my best guesses at where this all will lead, I have no particular ability to see into my own future, nor do I claim to have the benefit of divine insight. Thankfully I have never been plagued with the very common problem of hearing voices, and if I ever had heard a voice it's likely something that I would have spent a lot of time worrying over. So no voice of God to educate and inform me, only my own innate power to exercise a capacity for rational thought. But I do know that I am(have been) loved, I trust that that is enough to secure my place in the future. I have enjoyed the good fortune of meeting my very own Eve, my truest companion, early in my lifetime. She was an unattractive woman, advancing in years towards the end of her life, and I was 19 at the time. But I will never forget that there has been at least one other human being that believed in my ability to save the world. As she clearly agreed with me that our world is still in need of some salvation, and who's responsibility should it be to get that thing? The man who see's the need has all the responsibility for meeting it, this is what it means to be a citizen of the Universe. And if I knew that there was a way in which I could achieve that goal, I would surely make the effort. I have already passed judgement upon our humanity and decided that we are all-together deserving of more life. From my own perspective the only true measure of a man's wealth is the experience of Life and Universe itself. In that sense of the word wealth; I believe that I am a wealthy man indeed, although it has been a mix of both good and bad experience over the course of my lifetime. Out of self-interest I would like to have so much more of that wealth than I do now, I don't think of this as greed for by gaining knowledge of the truth we have not deprived others of knowledge of the truth. To be able to benefit directly from the life experience of others is my greatest dream, a goal whether or not I know it to be obtainable it is something that I would like. My peers can scream to high heaven about their rights to privacy for all that I care, I still want what they have.

UNequal Opportunities

Everyone should enjoy the opportunity to meet someone like me over the course of their lifetime I think. You could do far worse than to have me for your judge; I'm willing to give everyone a fair pardon from punishment, without exception. Leave no person behind, they are worth fighting for. Yes even our misguided villains such as Hitler deserve a chance to learn and grow; his life provides an excellent example of what it means to be human. But what potential do we posses to become, given unlimited time to learn and grow, it's hard to guess what we would be able to achieve, individually or collectively. Despite the fact that we exist as individual personalities, we are in no way separate from one another or the Universe as a whole; we are rather inter-dependent individuals. Each of us exists as part of something far greater than ourselves, and so much bigger than life on Earth as well. Throughout Human History we have seen examples where one individual's life work made all the difference, influencing our world beyond the limits of a single lifetime. I think we forget how big the world really is, all that we know is boundaries and if they don't exist in nature we will impose them upon ourselves. Only to divide our reality into manageable chunks, but we don't always recognize the relationships between those parts.

None can be greater than the least favored among us, we all change the world a little bit simply by living in it, in our own way we make a difference. We are all children of humanity from the beginning to the end, without possibility of divorce. It will never be within our power to separate ourselves from all the rest. The underlying Unity behind all created things will always and forever defeat our desires for separation. No physical distance is great enough and it still be within this Heaven or Universe, we are and have been citizens for the full extent of the future. Because the Universe has a way of remembering itself, it contains information about every part thereof, past and present to the utmost detail.

Most of my life experiences exist in the past, unchangeable. There is not a single thing that you or anyone else can say or do to me that will turn my successful life to failure. And if you desire to see us fail, I can only feel some pity for you. My self-esteem is healthy enough because I know that I am loved, with or without your approval. Therefor I do not need additional accomplishments in my lifetime to make my life complete; and I do not feel the need to convert followers to my own point-of-view. I will never depend upon the whims of popular opinion or a majority vote; I have the only vote and supporter that really matters. I have no doubt that I have been loved, but clearly it may not follow that I will live forever. Our reward for a lifetime of labor may be the very same; a mortal end and whatever comes after. We've been given no good reason to expect more than this. I'm more than willing to be surprised by the outcome here, if I feel any disappointment I know that I can outlast such feelings. God grants us no guarantees that we will avoid hardship completely, to the best of my knowledge no-one has ever had such a guarantee.

The good prayer of our brother Jesus begs for a way to pardon us from all punishment. Perhaps that prayer was well heard and the simple argument that, "I did not know any better at the time." will serve us before our judges. I hope that is the truth.

I'm sure that I'm not the smartest person in the world, but I don't see that as a certain advantage in life.
I love being crazy though, clearly that is an advantage.

Expecting the Unexpected

I would have many of our most favored children questioning fundamental ideas of which they have surly been taught from numerous reliable sources. Such as the idea that, "All terrorists are bad people." for example. Clearly they are persons who feel angry about something and who can say that those feelings are unjustifiable? What they choose to do about those feelings is where most of us have our disagreements. In cases where tyrannical means are directed towards undoing our own interests, we can very easily see violence as a problem. Although at the same time, most of us are still willing to employ the very same means in our own defense. And if our interests are not defended before some damage is done, we are willing to employ those means for vengeance or in other words, in the service of Justice we believe that punishment is due unto others. And of course our punishment may often include the sacrifice of a life, so it may do no more harm to us in the future. The only sure way we know to isolate an individual from the rest of the community, but does it accomplish that feat? Surely our Terrorist companions can make good use of the final argument of Christ and plead that they simply didn't have the knowledge that would help them choose a different course of action at the time. And why shouldn't that argument work as well for them as it should work for ourselves if necessary? Does it only apply to those of us who have been baptised by some authority, worldly or otherwise? I think that this blanket pardon should apply to every single one of us, and not just for those of us who may be described as meek. Should we count ourselves among the meek if we make demands upon the life and will of another in any event? If we choose to impose our own will upon the children of humanity, how can we count ourselves among those most favored by Jesus, those favored with an inheritance of real-estate even the Earth itself? It seems that none are righteous by seeking to govern the world, our world is fated to be governed by those who claim no right to govern, divine or otherwise. Yes certain teachings have been ascribed to this man Jesus, and some refer to it as parable but I simply refer to it as a prediction. We do not understand how the real world works, so we can not see a millennium of Peace on Planet Earth on our horizon. Beating Swords into Plowshares is something that our current world leaders could never choose to do; clearly we can not see beyond that truth to the fact that ultimately military superiority will fail to support our governors. Perhaps one single man in our history really did understand how the real world works in order to make an accurate prediction. Those who rely upon physical strength and numbers will be undone by one with the strength and numbers unimagined and unexpected, the possibilities can be quite surprising when we see them realized. And the Universe is just such a remarkable place that almost anything could happen.
Something that has never been achieved by one of us in our long history may yet come to pass, one could overcome mortality itself, we can not prove it an impossibility simply by pointing out that it's never happened.
And just what is this secret of FAITH that can empower one of us to move literal mountains? Can it possibly be work accomplished by someone more powerful than ourselves, of who's will has been won over by FAITH? I could claim that there is a noble cause which some higher-power could be convinced to serve. I need work, and I need work that no human agency individually or collectively could do. What would I need to offer in exchange for that favor? A simple commitment which goes beyond our mortal ends, one that can only be endured by the immortal man. For one must live forever in order to endure an endless torment, the torment of the promised reward for playing the part of our world's greatest villain, a tyrant perceived as the anti-thesis of Christ. Whereas Jesus sought to save your immortal souls, my own purpose is to save your flesh and bone and to save this planet to serve as your abode. For I do love this Universe of manifestation so much more than I love whatever else may be in my own personal interests. If there really is a way to escape it as the buddha suggested so long ago, I would not seek that escape for myself, not for a very long time at least. If I am the last individual to leave this Heaven, my own personal cause may be well served. Being able to cross that finish line is all that really matters, being well ranked in the race is of no matter to me. Because I know that I am loved, beyond the shadow of a doubt, I trust it completely. The Love of my God will enable me to endure whatever I need to endure. I can only rely upon my own personal experiences in life for all that it has taught me to believe or disbelieve, my choices were easy to make. I chose to believe that your welfare is best served by immortal life on Planet Earth, with all of your 14 billion or so companions  present to judge you with an independent judgement. Eventually we all must be able to decide that we can feel happy with the truth, whatever the truth may happen to be. I choose for myself the hard path of the Great Patriarch, the path which can make no exceptions; either all the children or none are deserving, this is the way it must be. And perhaps the answer will be none, the fate of our species will be extinction instead of resurrection, at the present moment in time the outcome is not guaranteed of course. A millennium of Peace on Earth is not guaranteed, and one thing sorta follows after the other so it's something we still need to see. If the prophecy of John still holds any truth for our world, this is what we true believers should expect IMHO.